So in the last Blog I left you I mentioned that I was home, my wonderful home of Lynchburg, Va. (siiiiiiiigh)
Oh I missed it dreadfully!

Woo! I'm tired all over again. As you can see I had a lot of fun and I'm sure I missed a few things. So naturally towards the end of my vacation I started to feel a little down because I would be leaving all of this behind. Yes I'd be molding the children of the world but STILL. On top of that, I'm not gonna go into a lot of detail because it's very personal but the whole time I was home, someone who I still deeply care for was giving me this "I want to be with you." "No I don't." "Yes I do." "I need space." dance EVERY day. I know what your thinking. However, it's extremely complicated because I'm on the road and he's still trying to get his Theatre degree. I'm confused about the whole thing. My Gills tell me one thing but my Heart says another. Like I said this is extremely private and complicated so I'm not going to explain any more than that. Readers just know my heart has never felt more torn.
The last few days I was home I had so much fun but yet I found myself still very sad because I knew I would be leaving soon. I was going through an ocean of emotion. The night before my last day in Lynchburg I cried myself to sleep about leaving, woke up, and cried again. Then I thought, "Ok today is a new day! Get up!". I went and got some Special K cereal (my fav) and was like "I'm gonna go find on the map hanging in my room of where I'm going and put pins in it. Yea! This is gonna be good!". Once I found every destination I was stoked. I was like "Yea this fall tour is going to rock!". Then I looked at Washington State, then Virginia, then Washington, saw how far Virginia was from Washington and started crying again. This was my last day in Lynchburg and I just then realized how far away Washington was from Virginia. Haha I was a mess! I spent the last day with my Dad just hanging out at the house and talking. I love him. Then later that night I met up with some friends for some late night Sweet Frog. On the way home and that night as I went to bed I cried again. :(
When I arrived in Spokane, Wa, Loretta's friend David picked me up and we met up with Loretta and her boyfriend Cole. Those last few days in Lynchburg I'm going to admit were extremely rough on a little Gill's heart but I woke up in Couer de Lane, Id the next morning ready for Fall Tour and I thought, "Today is a new day.". :)
-Jen
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